I knew they were the right words because they were true.
By
Updated 5 years ago,November 22, 2019
Those last words…finally.
The other day, I hit send.
Daria Shevtsova
I found the courage to speak my heart, to let it bleed out honestly and raw.
I found the right words, and I hit send.
I wrote what are likely to be the last words you ever hear from me.
I knew when I sent them, what they meant either The End or New Chapter.
But they also made me feel free.
I know tomorrow, Ill cry even more tears, and my body will hurt more.
I knew then as I know now, this was the consequence I had to choose to endure.
I had to let go.
I didnt want to, I still dont.
But, I had to.
I had to let go of the hope that you were in my life still.
I had to let go because I had no control, and trying to believe I did was exhausting.
I hit send and knew the risks.
I knew they could be misinterpreted.
I knew they could be laughed at.
I knew they could push you further away, truly sever that final thread of friendship.
I knew the words I sent you were right to potentially be my last.
