The whole time you were convinced that you would be their right person.

And that you would be the person to make a difference.

To change their perception of relationships and being committed to just one person.

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Tiago Almeida

You were convinced that you were different from the rest.

Its the worst kind of heartbreak because you never got to call them yours.

You never got to kiss them in public.

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You never got to share your darkest and deepest secrets with one another.

You never got to show him or her off.

You never got to truly be with them.

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Tiago Almeida

Almost relationships are the most painful when they end because they are exactly that almosts.

Wondering what you could have done to change their mind.

To change their heart.

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To make them stay.

Because it mightve felt like it, it mightve felt like you were that close, but were you?

When you were with them you were always questioning what you said and did.

You were always on edge, preparing for them to take off like they said they would.

They told you they didnt do relationships.

That they didnt do serious.

But you wanted serious.

The whole time you were convinced that you would be their right person.

And that you would be the person to make a difference.

To change their perception of relationships and being committed to just one person.

You were convinced that you were different from the rest.

And that you could make them fall in love with you.

So you fell.

When they kissed you, they thought of kissing other peoples lips.

When they hugged you and talked with you, you werent the only one.

And when you made love, they were just having sex.

But they never did.

And here you are, lying on the ground, wondering what went wrong.

And here you are missing someone who you could never even call yours.

Its a terrible feeling when you realize that you were never going to change their ways.

And you were never going to make them stay.

Because almost lovers arent the kind of people who you’re able to count on.

Almost lovers arent the kind of people who you’re free to give your whole heart to.

Because all they are going to do is stomp on it and walk away without remorse.

And your heart is too big and too full to ever love someone who wont appreciate its beauty.

And your soul is too wonderful and wise, to ever love someone who you only called an almost.

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