Because its never just goodbye when it ends.
Its someone always coming back around.
When the disappointments become something to expect.
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When you make plans being surprised if they actually follow through.
When will their personality change from caring about you at one moment and pushing you away the next?
And you think its love because youve invested so much time and energy and emotions into this thing.
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Its a whirlwind of chaos and intense emotions you become addicted to.
And you try and keep a brave face like it isnt affecting you as greatly as it is.
But with toxic relationships, it destroys you from the inside out.
And you dont even see the lasting effect it has.
Its your eyes that grow dull with a blank look.
Its a heart that is constantly broken.
Its the words you dont speak and silence and loneliness become familiar because youre alone again.
You wanted to believe there was an actual connection there and feelings.
You wanted to believe in the false promises and the one days.
Then they became a habit.
A part of your everyday routine.
Walking by you like your a stranger.
Saying some snide comment and knowing exactly how to getunder your skin.
This person who held you without touch.
This person knew exactly what to say and when to say it.
And they bring you right back to every emotion.
But they take pieces of you to make themselves whole and youre the one thats left empty.
Anticipating an unfollow or a block or no reason other than they felt like it that day.
Its the inconsistency of emotions but you should know that isnt normal.
Picking and choosing when to answer and when they want you isnt normal.
Blowing up your newsfeed after ghosting you isnt normal.
Saying I love you but then treating you like shit isnt love and it isnt normal.
But this person made you think all of these things were normal.
I wont tell you, you deserve better.
Because I know you know those things.
And the days that turn into weeks and months will hurt too.
There will be times you want to just go back.
But by then you wont need any of it.
Because overcoming a toxic relationship teaches you, you have the ability to beat someone who destroyed you.
