Not all flowers bloom at the same time.
This is one of the biggest questions we all long to answer.
When we are children, we arent bound by the notion of needing to have a life purpose.
Jamie Street
We fall many times when we are learning to walk but we get up.
We keep trying with an unwavering determination despite our scratched-up knees, which is fueled by our built-in curiosity.
This curiosity is meant to guide us towards our own unique purpose.
If this wasnt so, we would not all have unique voices and fingerprints.
What sparked their joy was different than mine.
Even if the questions they asked were similar, different answers lit them up.
I felt like I was witnessing a lotus flower bloom.
This feeling has never left me.
They birthed the questions I had spent most of my adult life trying to answer.
The first 18 years of my life was the mud.
I didnt have the skills to zoom out enough to look for a different meaning in that mud.
I just saw suffering.
For years, I looked at others and compared their flower with my mud.
It was one of the most painful feelings I can remember.
I took me a very long time to learn to trust that.
The first question that guided the next decade of my adult life was, What is wrong with me?
I was in so much emotional pain that I was very motivated to find the answer.
I didnt love myself, and I didnt love my life.
I asked the Universe why I was here and why I had to feel so much pain.
I didnt get an answer.
What is wrong with me?
was the question that started my quest and shaped my journey for the next 10 years.
I did a lot of research and read a lot of self-help books.
Then the next important question surfaced: How can I heal?
By asking this question, I was led to walk through the doors of my first long-term therapist.
As my emotions started thawing out, I began to connect to my core self again.
I started exploring the interests that I had tucked away.
I decided to go back to school and study to become a therapist.
This was a full circle experience for me.
While going to school, I continued to see therapists and tried different healing modalities.
This was my whole life.
I lived and breathed it.
I was starting to lose my patience.
Then the third question showed up on its own: Why am I not healing?
I was beginning to realize that I wasnt the one coming up with the questions.
The questions were arriving when I was ready to receive the next piece of the puzzle of my life.
They had their own questions that came out of their own life path.
I could compare notes with them, become inspired by their stories, and maybe find some clues.
But I couldnt borrow their questions to find the answers my soul had come to find.
Realizing this was a point of freedom for me.
Not all flowers bloom at the same time.
It takes up to seven weeks for roses to ripen.
Carnations take up to 12 weeks, gardenias can take up to a year to bloom.
Secondly, review your life.
Zoom out of it to see which questions you have been trying to answer.
Our life questions rise out of our biggest struggles.
We are either trying to reach towards inspiration or get out of pain.
Invite the questions in, even if you dont feel ready to receive the answers yet.
Your purpose may not become clear until all the dots are there for you to connect.
If neither of these options work, be patient.
We are just like flowers waiting to bloom while weathering the storms of our lives.
I love the saying, Nature doesnt hurry but everything gets done.
Your inner being knows where you are going and what kind of flower you are destined to bloom into.
It will carry you through.
