Looking back on it now, I can finally see the role I played in my own heartbreak.
It was the kind of love I am almost ashamed to admit I was hooked on for so long.
The love story that never took off, even though I wanted it to more than anything.
Will Wilson
When I was in the thick of it, I couldnt see our relationship for what it was.
You were honest with me about what you wanted from the start.
You didnt want a commitment, but I thought that I could change your mind.
I fell for you so quickly that I was willing to do anything to make you stay.
I was completely and utterly infatuated with you.
I fell in love with the idea of what love would look like with you by my side.
Will Wilson
I let this illusion cloud all rational thoughts.
I lost sight of who I was.
I lost sight of what I knew I deserved in a relationship.
I did all of the things I said I would never do.
I became obsessive and desperate for your approval.
I made excuses for your lack of commitment and resolved to wait for you to be ready for me.
I compromised my way into your world, even though it was a lesser relationship than what I wanted.
I dont know how I didnt see it at the time.
And its embarrassing now to look back at it for what it was.
Because I had romanticized my pursuit of you for so long.
I blamed you for my pain when I should have been holding myself accountable.
I was holding on to someone that had no interest in holding on to me.
