You’re allowed to be upset about him leaving.
Even if he was never your official boyfriend.
Even if he was an asshole who doesn’t deserve your tears.
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You are not pathetic for imagining alternate futures where you two ended up together and lived happily ever after.
You are not pathetic for loving someone who doesnt love you.
You are not pathetic for being human, for having feelings.
You are not pathetic for being heartbroken.
You might hate yourself for missing him, but its okay.
Youre allowed to feel the way you feel.
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Dont give a shot to control your emotions.
Just let them loose.
Remember, youre allowed to be upset about him leaving.
Even if he was never your official boyfriend.
Even if he was an asshole who doesnt deserve your tears.
Youre allowed to hate him, even if he claims that he did nothing wrong.
Youre allowed to write out texts and then erase them.
Youre allowed to imagine how he would respond if you actually pressedsend.
Youre allowed to make a mistake and actually go through with contacting him.
Youre allowed to wear your best clothes when you know youre going to see him.
Youre allowed to take a stab at make him jealous, to make him miss what he lost.
Youre allowed to mope around for a few weeks.
Youre allowed to whine about him to your friends.
Youre allowed to drink a little too much and cry a little too hard.
Youre allowed to break down.
you’re able to be a strong, independent woman and still be hung up on a boy.
Your heartache doesnt make you lesser.
It makes you normal.
Just remember, you are going to survive this.
And you are going to come out more confident than youve ever been before.
It might take a while, but eventually, youre going to accept that hes gone.
Youre going to realize that life without him is actually better than life with him.
Eventually, youre going to move on.
But for now, youre allowed to be upset.
You are allowed to miss him.
