You Are Right For Me But I Will Never Be Right For You

You are everything I wanted in a man, but I will never be good enough for you.

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Updated 6 years ago,November 7, 2018

I remember our first date.

I remember not noticing the time because the conversation and the laughter just flowed so well.

Bianca des Jardins

I remember you taking me home and hoping youd call me again.

I liked that I could make you smile.

I liked that you were socially engaged and that you were passionate about work and socio-political issues.

I liked everything about you, it seems.

Even though you werent good at expressing emotions, I had learned to read your cues.

You didnt know how to give compliments, so I learned how to subtly fish for it.

It never felt like sacrifice because I understood that this was how you were.

Youve never led me on.

But of course, I just had to push.

I saw potential and thought, what the hell, Im just going to go for it!

Until you didnt anymore.

Looking back now, I know theres nothing I could have done to keep you.

You are right for me but I will never be right for you.

It just wasnt about the distance.

We are just two very different people.

You are everything I wanted in a man, but I will never be good enough for you.

You are too smart for me.

I dont think idol-worship wouldve done us any good.

I am not demeaning myself.

I acknowledge that without bitterness or anger.

Im still hopeful though.

I know my guy is out there though I have yet to meet him.

So for now, I will continue grieving losing you.