I trusted you with my heart, with my secrets, with my skin and my bones.
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Updated 7 years ago,April 2, 2018
I never thought that you would hurt me.
I trusted you with my heart, with my secrets, with my skin and my bones.
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I never believed that you would slip away from my grasp.
That you would decide that… Whatdidyou decide?
That everything I offered still wasnt enough?
That you needed more than one soul could possibly give you?
There must have been red flags waving in front of their faces that they ignored.
They must have played a part in their own destruction.
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I suddenly understood that hurt could appear out of thin air, like dark magic.
Its not my first time suffering throughout heartache, of course not.
Ive been hurt in the past by people I already knew were trouble.
I expected the disappointment and it still hurt like hell.
It still caused my bedsheets to stain with teardrops.
Being betrayed out of the blue?
Nothing has ever hurt more than this.
No stomachaches or shattered bones could ever compare.
You are the last person I ever thought would hurt me.
Thats why I allowed you to get so close.
Thats why I deconstructed the barriers around my heart and let you walk through the gates.
Thats why I let you into every crevice of my soul.
I can imagine future relationships, where I scamper away when things start to get serious.
Where I snoop through phone messages and doubt every word that comes from my lovers lips.
While Im still fighting to gulp down air.
You are the last person I ever thought would hurt me.
And, now, you are the last person I want to see.
The last person I want in my life.
