It feels like people have a sixth sense for this kind of thing.
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Updated 8 years ago,July 19, 2017
I dont know what to call something like this.
Cosmic karma for some act I committed in a previous life?
Brooke Cagle
Getting what I wished for long after Id let that wish die out?
It feels like people have a sixth sense for this kind of thing.
They meet the first Monday of every month.
There are pie charts and posters tacked to the wall like some scene out of a forensic crime show.
Together, they formulate plans.
Someone has invented a gadget that notifies them the second weve moved on.
Brooke Cagle
Because isnt that always how it goes?
They only come back when werefinallyover it.
I dont know why you did it.
Or rather, I dont know why you waited so long.
I spent so many nights bandaging wounds I thought would never heal.
I cried and yelled and watched shitty romcoms and yelled at said romcoms for their unrealistic expectations.
I traced our history through dusty memories.
I searched for some reason I wasnt enough.
For some reason we fell apart instead of fought for each other.
I didnt get answers.
Most of us dont.
Closure is a funny thing.
We expect it to come so neatly, to be provided and BAM everything is crystal clear.
Maybe closure is just acceptance.
Maybe its just putting something to rest that isnt serving us anymore.
And thats what I did.
I closed the door.
I stitched myself up.
Not all at once, but slowly.
And eventually, I realized I wasnt looking for you.
I wasnt making myself miserable hanging on to an idea.
So, naturally, what happens?
You find the exact moment Ive moved on and disrupt all the progress Ive made.
I wanted this more than anything.
But you cant just walk in because youve changed your mind.
You cant just waltz in like no destruction was left in your path.
You cant come back now and act like you never left to begin with.
