Its easy to look backward and see where it all went wrong.
The life we choose, at its core, stems from the decisions we made in our past.
The path we choose to walk down is indicative of our future.
Kinga Cichewicz
Heres what I think about that.
I think your twenties are full of shit that make them less enjoyable.
We should have it all together, all figured out.
But then 26 happens.
Id be lying if I said I didnt compare myself to the girls I went to high school with.
I wonder how theyve stayed in perfect shape when I blossomed up four pant sizes since graduation.
It seems so unfair, when I think about it but my life is the result of my decisions.
Like Frost, its easy to look backward and see where it all went wrong.
But you could always look for the light.
But in actuality, its really fantastic advice.
I didnt need to buy a hot, oversized velvet comforter in the early days of August.
A future, mind you, that I dont want.
A future, mind you,that I dont have to have.
Those vacations, the apartment, the family Im the reason I dont have them.
My friends were credit cards.
My boyfriends, new stuff.
And nothing ever made me happy.
I always felt devoid no matter how much stuff I bought.
It never made me happy but I choose to grow from it.
But I refuse to think that our twenties are inherently good.
I think we have to choose to MAKE them good.
Anyone who claims to have it all together, doesnt.
Anyone who claims to be happy, or living their truth, isnt.
Because people who are happy, and put together and living their truth dont have to announce it.
Goddamnit, you ARE worth something.
Youre here and youre alive and youre waking up in the morning showing up for the life you want.
you might feel it, see it, taste it and my God do you deserve it.
You dont have to look for the good in every situation.
Ill be the first one to tell you that sometimes there are certain situations that have no greater good.
Like death, like losing someone you love theres no good in that.
Theres no lesson to be learned there.
Life is cruel and ugly and disgusting.
Pick and choose what youll regret.
And dont let anyone yourself included dull that light within you.
