You cannot heal where you experience trauma.
You cannot heal in the places you are being abused.
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Updated 4 years ago,February 11, 2021
Its no secret that change is intimidating and scary.
Kari Shea
We tend to be creatures of habit who take comfort in routines and familiarity.
This is not always a bad thing necessarily.
However, for someone engulfed in a toxic environment, staying can prove to be extremely pernicious.
We put our effort into making the best of our situation rather than moving on to something brighter.
The sad reality, though, is that the longer we stay here, the worse we feel.
The more we breathe in our toxic life, the sicker we get.
This is a very familiar feeling for me.
There is an unexplainable feeling of unease that comes from being self-aware of our harmful environment.
Eventually, staying put and avoiding the unknown can take a major toll on our mental and physical health.
When the brain is sick, our body tends to follow suit.
I was prescribed the pills they said I needed.
I followed the advice they were sure would fix me.
I stayed loyal to a life that was pulling me downhill.
After years of thinking this was the right way to make myself better, I was actually worse.
I wanted out and I didnt feel like this place was right for me anymore.
I discovered that rock bottom was my exit door.
Yes, my world was familiar and predictable.
Somehow that didnt help any anxiety I felt, because what was familiar was not actually healthy.
You cannot heal where you experience trauma.
You cannot heal in the places you are being abused.
You cannot heal in a place that doesnt let you grow.
You cannot heal while surrounded by people who dont want you to get better.
you could waste years of your life fighting it, but the simple facts remain.
Healing requires a healthy environment.
Give nothing and no one the power to chain you to the past.
I know the pain that may come from loosening your grip on whats familiar.
You may have to give up some things or people that you never dreamed of losing.
Its okay to feel that sadness.
The most important thing is to keep moving towards recovery anyways.
You are worth so much more than what your environment might trick you into thinking.
You are more powerful than youve given yourself credit for up to this point.
You are strong enough to fight for your own happiness, no matter what obstacles fall in your way.
