In the past, kindness was always followed up with some ulterior motive.
Why would anything be different this time?
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Updated 5 years ago,May 24, 2020
Too good to be true.
Chermiti Mohamed
Those words are always echoing inside you.
They are the inevitable follow up to any good thought that crosses your mind.
There is a catch to everything.
There are hidden motives and wolves in sheeps clothing everywhere.
This cant possibly be as good as what I hope it is.
Nope, wont fall for that one again.
Truthfully, its only fair that your knee jerk reaction to everything tends to curl towards pessimism.
Youve been taught that in general, most people arent as nice as they seem.
In the past, kindness was always followed up with some ulterior motive.
Why would anything be different this time?
For the sake of being bluntly honest, its because youre wrong.
Now, its not necessarily your fault that youre wrong.
Sometimes our mind is our own worst enemy when it comes to deciding who to trust.
These things are still useful, of course.
Maybe you feel like your intuition is faulty and scarred from past betrayals, which is fair.
Not everyone is going to hurt you.
Not everyone is going to lie to you.
Not everyone is hiding behind a facade.
Your brain is just stuck in safety mode.
The first step is to convince yourself of the truth.
You deserve to be treated well, and you deserve to be loved for exactly who you are.
Realize how worthy you are of all these things.
When your own self-respect is at the elevated level it should be, your internal compass starts working again.
Learn to trust yourself again, because thats where your power comes from.
No one can throw you for a loop again because youre wiser now.
Youve learned your lessons, and yet here you are.
Still looking for the good.
Still letting those optimistic thoughts seep in, even if before now you would have squashed them soon after.
Let those positive thoughts stay.
There are billions of people in the world.
A lot of those people have been let down too.
A lot of them have hearts like you do.
You dont have to keep pushing everyone away.
Its time to let yourself be treated the way you deserve by the people who love you.
You deserve that love, and you deserve to feel safe in loving people back the same way.
