I need to let them go.
I need to let all that negativity go.
And so do you.
Allef Vinicius
And after you do, hey forgive yourself.
You will never just everybody in this world.
Not everyone in this world will love you.
But at least you might love yourself.
Im not saying you should insult and curse at every person who wronged you in the past.
Dont maliciously betray a friend or a significant other just to get revenge.
Allef Vinicius
Dont go and scream at your ex for breaking up with you.
This is what Im saying.
Im saying that you better be selfish.
Selfish in the people that you surround yourself with.
Selfish in who you choose to spend time with.
Selfish in regards to who you let your guard down for.
Selfish in who you want to sleep with, eat with, converse with and sit with.
Selfish for your own mental health.
And for your ultimate happiness.
I never thought it would happen.
I never meant for it to happen.
But in your 20s shitty stuff happens.
People change in a way that makes you uncomfortable.
and its not anyones fault.
Its just what it is.
Maybe some of them will see this and read this and roll their eyes.
Maybe Im the one to blame.
Maybe Im the one who wastooselfish.
But you know what?
Ive wasted too much time on giving my heart to people who didnt even want it.
Ive wasted too much time on trying nourishing relationships and friendships that were already died.
Ive wasted too much of my time on toxic people.
And I dont need that in my life.
Its taken 24 years for me to learn that my life is mine.
Its not his or hers or theirs.
Its mine to make my own mistakes and to learn from them.
Its my own life to grow and change and fuck up and grow some more.
We all go through hell.
We all climb through mountains in snowstorms.
I have no hate for any of the friendships andrelationshipsI have lost.
I hold no resentment for them in my heart.
In fact, all I have is love for them.
An overflowing amount of love for them.
Maybe some day, we will cross paths and bounce back to where we left off.
Or maybe our communication levels will exceed to only a happy birthday each year.
But just because I cant be in their lives anymore, doesnt mean that they dont matter.
It doesnt mean that they arent worthy or beautiful or fun or smart.
This isnt even about their character or my love for them.
This is about me taking control of my life.
And taking control of my own heart which I have neglected for so long.
And maybe its harsh.
I hate hurting people even when I dont mean to.
I hate cutting people out of my life.
I hate losing these friends and these people who I so deeply love.
But I need to let them go.
I need to let all that negativity go.
And so do you.
And after you do, pleaseforgive yourself.
You will never like everybody in this world.
Not everyone in this world will love you.
But at least you’re free to love yourself.
At least you might say, that you did this for you.
And dont forget, you will always have you.
