Because that’s all you saw her as someone who could get you further than you were.
Someone who could help you.
Someone who could be exactly what you needed but you picked and chose when.
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She might give you a hug and engage in conversation.
She might answer every time you text her and ask how you are.
She might like everything you post.
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And she might appear to be doing fine.
But you hurt her much more than she will ever lead on.
When shes looking at you smiling, her heart is breaking more but shes trying to hide it.
When she hugs you, her heart is beating faster and shes hoping you dont notice.
When shes talking there is so much she isnt saying.
Like I let you closer than anyone and I hate that I regret it.
Like I believed in you and you let me down.
Like I counted on you and all you did was disappoint me.
Like I opened my heart and I was the one made a fool.
Hoping one day youd be ready.
And when everyone told her to doubt you she held onto faith.
Every time you canceled she believed in a second chance.
And every time you hurt her she thought maybe one day you wouldnt.
Thinking maybe the confidence she had in you, would one day be met.
Because while she was fumbling through this confusion of how do you feel?
She spelled out how she felt in black and white.
You didnt think twice about what it took her to be that vulnerable.
Maybe you thought she was like this with everyone.
If anything she was the opposite because she really didnt trust too many people.
She really didnt let too many people in.
She really pulled away anytime someone tried to get to know her.
She really didnt believe in love then she started to with you.
Because you were different.
With you she felt safe.
With you she felt secure.
With you she felt confident.
There was a time where I know it crossed both of your minds wondering how you felt.
And she waited patiently for you to figure it out.
Waiting for a sign or the right moment.
And as she waited she fell harder and you just let her.
With every deep conversation.
Withevery text in the morning.With all the time you spent together.
You were looking at your watch and she was looking at you valuing the moment.
You picked and chose when you wanted her.
When she wasconvenientfor you.
You werent there as she held back tears getting the text, hes here.
As she sat alone in her room because you canceled.
And you werent there as a mutual acquaintance told her exactly what you thought of her.
At least someone had the decency, to be honest.
You didnt meet her with honesty.
You didnt meet her with respect.
You didnt meet her with kindness.
Because thats all you saw her as someone who could get you further than you were.
Someone who could help you.
Someone who could be exactly what you needed but you picked and chose when.
She didnt ask much of you yet she still gave you everything she had.
And once you realized she didnt have much more that was it for you.
You lose the love you probably didnt deserve.
You lose respect she had.
In the reality, losing you will be her greatest gain.
