I guess what made it so hard was not losing you but the way I did.
My face stares blankly, wordlessly, yet my mind is far from calm.
After all this time, my heart still pounds painfully against my chest at the thought of you.
Alec Douglas
Sometimes I look at your old messages when I miss you.
There wouldnt be abefore youandafter youversion of me.
The demise of us did not happen over time.
Alec Douglas
It was abrupt, sudden, and shocking.
And there was nothing I could have done to prevent it.
One moment I was in your arms, dreaming of our future together.
You were still talking and I didnt want to listen.
I wanted to yell at you and ask, after all this time,why?
But I was unable to move and I continued to stay silent.
I never had any proper closure of us.
One moment we were together and the next we were torn apart.
We were suddenly strangers leading our own separate lives.
I guess what made it so hard was not losing you but the way I did.
You were suddenly gone and I wasnt prepared for it.
You promised me forever but turned and ran the instant things proved to be too much.
You traded your promises to me for apologies and goodbyes.
I started wondering if any of it was real and if your feelings for me were true.
I started to build wall instead of relationships, believing everyone would eventually leave.
But slowly but surely, I walked out from the shadow of our past.
I stopped searching for answers and realized that none of that matters anymore.
For to truly move on, I had to stop looking for closure.
And that is the only closure I need.
