The mistake was that I wanted you to love me so much I forgot to love myself.
My ego just suddenly mattered and didnt matter that much all at once.
To honor myself and my heart enough.
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To stay away from the things that hurt me, the ones that hurt me.
To stay away from you.
I loved you and I believe that love is never a mistake.
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Even after all that happened.
The mistake was that I let myself care for you while you did nothing but hurt me.
Changing how I think for you.
Accepting whatever toxic matter you have said and acted upon and thinking this is just normal.
I wish you said you didnt love me.
I wish you made it easier.
I wish you closed the door.
Each time I thought I could leave, you came back.
Sometimes only with a smile but you knew that smile would do it.
It wouldnt let me go.
And I let myself forget each time that behind this smile there is going to be a dark hell.
Of me being underappreciated.
I let myself hope that maybe you have changed, maybe you have known my worth.
I was wrong maybe.
To love and accept a love way less than mine.
To think that maybe this is all I deserve.
I was wrong maybe to forget that I deserve to be loved.
I dont know if I deserve an epic love but I know I deserve to feel respected and appreciated.
I finally let you go because somehow I am not blind anymore.
Somehow I now know what really matters which is me.
