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Updated 5 years ago,July 13, 2020
Weve all been there.
Your day is a little brighter and your smile is a little bigger when you talk to him.
You put forth the effort to look your best because theres a chance youre probably going to see him.
Yoann Boyer
Nothing is going to change what you mean to him.
And that feels like nothing most days.
Most days you feel as though youre second best.
Most days you feel like youll never mean what you want to mean to him.
Most days you fake the smile just to avoid that awkward conversation.
Most days you pretend youre alright, but deep down your heart wants to burst out of your chest.
Most days youre not okay.
And this is why.
Youve shut down every other avenue and completely cleared the roster.
You dont want anyone else.
Youve shared some of your deepest, darkest secrets with him.
The two of you have been through more in the last simonths than anyone else youve ever known.
Youre there for every phone call.
Youre there to hear about the girls hes sleeping with (including you).
Youre there for every little inconvenience in his life.
Why are you doing this?
He knows you have feelings for him, but he doesnt know how deep they actually are.
Youre literally putting him and his happiness before yours, and thats the saddest thing in the world.
Hes making you feel like youre not enough or somehow unworthy.
STOP LETTING THIS HAPPEN.
Some days you cry yourself to sleep and no one knows.
Some days you feel completely worthless and no one knows.
Some days you find it difficult to even get out of bed and no one knows.
This isnt fair to you.
You know you better let him go, but you still keep holding on.
Having him in your life like this is better than not having him at all, right?
You are so much more than youre giving yourself credit for.
You are one of the funniest people you know.
You have a laugh and a smile that could light up any room.
Your heart is one made of gold and constantly worn on your sleeve.
You should let him go and you should do it now.
You are a bomb ass bitch and it’s crucial that you remember that every single day.
