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Updated 6 years ago,June 1, 2019
We almost dated.
We almost fell in love.
You were almost my officialboyfriend.
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I was disappointed about you walking away from everything we could have been.
I was confused about what all of your mixed signals meant.
I was as heartbroken as I would have been if someone had dumped me.
I never want to be the person who cares more.
The person who bends over backwards and is still taken for granted.
I never want to be the person who feels like they are never doing enough.
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Someone who goes back and forth about whether or not they want to be with me.
Someone who has a hard time choosing between me and the single life.
Im glad you didnt date me, because you werent exactlyboyfriend material.
You were fun to flirt with.
You were fun to text and fun to hang out with.
But there were times when I needed you and you werent there for me.
There were times when you made promises that you couldnt keep.
There were times when you proved I wasnt your first priority.
I cant be with someone like that.
Im glad you didnt date me, because it gave me a chance to explore my other options.
It gave me a chance to see that there are other people out there who are interested in me.
So interested that they will actually put in the effort to keep me.
So interested that they will never leave a text unanswered or a feeling unspoken.
Im glad you didnt date me, because I deserve better than you.
I deserve someone who would never go MIA.
Someone who would never send mixed signals.
Someone who would never lead me on.
I deserve someone who will fight for me, because they believe that I am worth the effort.
Someone who will be honest about their feelings, because they believe I deserve the truth.
Someone who will take me out on real dates, because they dont thinkalmostis good enough.
I spent a long time questioning why we never got together.
A long time angry at you for ruining something that could have been special.
But I am through with mourning ouralmost relationship.
I am done wishing that things turned out differently between us.
Maybe we were never supposed to date.
Maybe you were only meant to be in my life for a little while.
And maybe thats a good thing.
