You wonder how I could have the audacity to hurt you.
The truth is,youtaught me how to do all of those things.
Even though you claimed to love me, you repeatedly hurt me.
Bianca Des Jardins
You made the same mistakes over and over again, on a loop.
You showed me it was possible to care about someone and hurt someone at the same time.
You showed me how to be selfish.
You showed me how to put myself first.
I watched you make selfish decisions that benefitted you but completely ruined me.
If youre accusing me of being cruel and heartless right now, just know that I learned it fromyou.
Your toxic love taught me a lot of unhealthy lessons about relationships.
It made me think of arguments as normal.
It made me believe passion and pain went hand-in-hand.
It warped the way I think about relationships.
It warped the way I think about myself.
You taught me its okay to be selfish.
You taught me my own feelings are the only ones that matter.
You taught me to choose myself over everyone else, even you.
I learned that skill fromyou.
You only have yourself to thank.
Without you in my world, I would have continued down a sugary sweet path.
I would have prided myself on my kindness.
I would have used my soft heart to make decisions.
You taught me skepticism and selfishness.
You taught me to think only of myself.
And, trust me, my world is much better without you in it.
My mind is much quieter.
My baggage is much lighter.
My future is much broader.
