What changed was the way she looked at you.
Youll realize she looks a little prettier that far away even if shes close.
Theres something about someone you cant have.
Milly Cope
Its going to be then you realize what it is you miss about her.
Every conversation whereshe talked about you.
Every text you knew with certainty would be answered a little too fast.
Every text you used to ignore and voicemails you hated that she left.
You never knew looking back at those moments and memories would hurt so much.
You miss the messages that popped up when she saw something and thought of you.
Conversations of just wanting to know how you were doing.
And maybe it was annoying sometimes but there wasnt anyone with better intentions.
There isnt anyone who wouldnt do anything you ask.
You realize what you thought was desperation was really caring.
You realize what really seemed like she lacked confidence was her giving tosomeone who didnt appreciate it.
You realize every time you thought she was different thats what made her so special.
Youll regret the fact you never told her all these things or appreciated her or thanked her.
You miss someone who never stopped trying with you.
All those times you cancelled and all she responded with was okay see you soon.
Youll miss this person who was always on your side wanting what was best for you.
What she learned over time was it would never be her.
And it isnt like you did anything wrong.
But you didnt do anything right either to make her stay.
Thats the thing about good people they stay for as long as they can believing in you.
But you cant keep them waiting forever.
She walked away because she had to.
Because she couldnt keep trying and caring and putting herself out there only to get hurt.
She didnt want to be wrong about you.
And she hated that she was because she thought you were different.
She realizes she couldnt be the only one trying here.
Youll each move on and youll watch as she does.
Maybe its across a newsfeed or snap story.
Maybe youll know she moved on because it almost feels like shes vanished in a way.
Not even caring to advertise her new relationship because its one shes keeping for herself.
You wonder whats going on but you cant even find the words to ask.
Youll see her out and shell look at you smiling maybe even hug you like she used to.
