Its okay that you have things to work on.
Youre human, just like me.
That no matter what might happen in our lives, part of my heart would always belong to you.
Fora Westbrook
I wasnt lying when I said it- and I think thats partially true.
But there was an unspoken undertone that we both held onto.you could always come back.
Ill always let you back into my life because I love you.
I wanted that to be true, and for the longest time I thought it was.
Yet instead, we would go through the same old patterns.
The excuses, the arguments, the desire for others, the refusal to communicate.
We would swear we were magic one moment, then claim we were a mistake the next.
I would tell myself I didnt need you, but I knew I wanted you.
So I would buy into all the sweet things you said.
Yet this time, something in me finally broke.
Because now, I dont want you to come back.
They have to not only want it, but they have to do something about it.
They cant just tell you how sorry they are.
When someone wants to do those things, then they actually work on them.
They dont constantly put you through situations that leave you feeling worthless.
They dont make promises that they wont keep.
Its okay that you have things to work on.
Youre human, just like me.
I have to set boundaries for myself, because you dont have my best interests at heart.
Even if you were able to be there for me now, I wouldnt be able to welcome it.
After years of hoping, I finally have reached the end.
Things have changed now, and I cant pretend like everything weve been through hasnt happened.
I will be expecting the worst, and will never be able to be comfortable.
Youve broken my heart too many times, and it doesnt even fit right in your hands anymore.
I can tell it doesnt belong there, and that honestly it never did.
I believe I meant it when I said I would always love you.
Yet I also know that doesnt mean I need to let you come back into my life again.
It doesnt mean I owe you another chance.
You had every opportunity, and you chose to walk away, over and over again.
So now, its my turn to walk away.
